Emotional Waste

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Having had situational depression, I can honestly say that it is probably the biggest waste of my emotional energy.  The only reason that I say this is that it doesn't help anything.  Depression can be an easy state to fall into when something good or bad happens in one’s life.  When one is depressed they lose energy for everything else.  That also means they are not fixing what caused the depression in the first place.  I have gotten depressed over the loss of my pregnancies, over the loss of friends and sometimes even when something great happens if that something great is life changing.  For me depression doesn't last long.  However, currently I am caught between depression and acceptance for my ectopic pregnancy.  Every time I think I am over it something will happen that makes me realize that I have not let it go.  Knowing that nothing I can do will change the situation it leads back to depression.