Guilt Associated with Miscarrage

I am currently going through yet another miscarriage.  This time I was about 7 weeks pregnant. While I should be happy since I was able to get pregnant without the use of fertility drugs,  it still hurts that once again I have failed to bring a child to the world.  One of the things that you forget about over time is the guilt.  I feel guilty about this miscarriage.  What if I hadn't stressed out, what I hadn't cleaned that bathroom, what if I hadn't taken that Tylenol would the fetus still be ok?  

In most cases the answer is no.  In my personal case, I need the support of hormones in order to carry a child to term.  I was simply not able to obtain those hormones in time.  That means that without them I do not have the required amounts in order to keep the pregnancy.  However, this is my issue. 

In most cases the answer is that there is something wrong with the child and not with the mother.  While there are things that a mother can do to TRY to lower the chance of miscarriage, it is a sad fact that about 25% of all pregnancies end this way.  For some reason the 6 to 8 week time frame is critical to the babies development and it something goes wrong during this time frame, the fetus cannot continue and dies.  This is not the mothers fault at all.  In fact for part of this developmental time the mother has little to nothing to do with the development of the baby since they are not yet feeding off of you.

Pregnancy Loss

There are so many reasons for pregnancy loss; from medical issues of the mother such as Celiac, PCOS IgA-D, and Lupus, to issues with problems with progesterone production, or just a non-viable fetus.  However, each one of these reasons may not lessen the pain that comes along with losing a child.  

Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome

Many women going through fertility hear about Ovarian Hyperstimulation.  However, it doesn't happen to most women.  I have had this issue not once but twice.  I am not only going to share the basics they tell you, but also how it really affects a person.

Being Completely Exhausted

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There have been very few times when I have been completely exhausted, my first day in Fiji, a couple of times on my trip to Germany, a few of my 10 days in Orlando, but I am only talking physically exhausted.  There was only a very few times in my life when I was completely exhausted emotionally, as well as physically and mentally.